Saturday 28th

Why do our relatives fight so much, brother?
It's like nothing is ever good enough for them now from other people.
Anyone outside their tiny little weird circle is automatically an attack on them or something for them to conquer or milk dry.

I don't understand it.

We all make some not so ideal choices, don't we?
I'm sure by now you would've made a few horrendous ones of your own.

A few of us kids are adults now, brother.
You would be too.
We have to make our own choices and live with the consequences, and you would too.

I would try to protect you from all of the bad things.. of course.
You would learn plenty of hard lessons yourself.

We tend to either not listen, or listen but have hope for a better outcome than someone else predicted.

Like when I was dating N. So many people told me not to do it. That it was a bad idea.
But I didn't listen, did I?
Haha, nope.
And of course it did turn out so differently than I thought it would.
But you know what? I learned so much from that experience.
I thought I had my standards for how I should be treated, but when you love someone, all of that gets clouded, or put aside for now -it won't always be like that will it? That's what we all think.
But if it's not going to change for the better, we need to learn that.

In a perfect world we all just be told "don't do this! bad idea!" and we wouldn't, we'd instantly magically understand the full repercussions.
But we don't live in a perfect world. We need things to be put up on a big billboard right in front of our face every day for the message to sink in sometimes.
We can't cover our house in post its that say "he's an asshole!"
Well.. we could.. but we probably shouldn't.

Why do people act like they have never made mistakes, brother?
I'm sure if you were still here you would have so much compassion, empathy and understanding to share with other people.
I'm sure that if you were still here you would try and help where you could, instead of washing your hands of someone and acting like you are worlds above them.

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